20 weeks!!!

Woot!! 20 weeks!! Half way to babet! I can’t believe I’m already halfway through this pregnancy. Part of me remembers the earlier weeks going pretty slow, mostly because of feeling sick and tired and a bit worried.  But lately, the weeks have just been breezing by so fast. And now that I can feel baby moving, it just seems more real. Though at times, I sometimes think I can’t believe we’re going to have a baby in about 5 months. I will be holding an actual tiny human being in my arms that we made. That will come out of me some way or another (Chris maintains it will break out alien-style. I think I prefer to just not think about baby’s entry to the world too much because eek…though I know I should think about it at some point.). I’m super excited, but at the same time, nervous. I have no idea what to expect. As many baby blogs and books as I read, I don’t think we’ll ever be prepared. What if I’m terrible at being a mom? I desperately don’t want to be over-protective, but I know I will be. But I can’t wait to start getting to know my little boy or girl.

This week was pretty uneventful symptom-wise, but we did have a pretty major event – registering for baby! I was pretty excited about it and I’ve been doing research for weeks on what we need and what good choices are for different things. I mostly made up a wishlist myself before we went out with a lot of things chosen, but I had a few categories of items I couldn’t decide on, so I wrote down a few options and then we chose together at Babies R Us. Chris got to use the scan gun, so that made him happy, but it took much longer than I expected and we had a few indecisive moments, so I think we were both pretty exhausted by the end of it. When we got home, I went through the list of “baby needs” that the store gave us and added a few more things. So, the registry is done, though we don’t have bedding or furniture on it. The only thing I wasn’t sure whether or not we should add was books – do they fall under the clothing category, as in, people will want to buy that kind of thing anyway, so just take what you get or should I be adding a few? I don’t know that we have any strong preferences for certain books we absolutely must have because they were read to us as kids, so that argument is out.

We ordered the furniture today from USA Baby – from our original 2 choices, we went with the Majestic, but opted for the curved top style instead of the flat top – we figured that made it a good compromise between the more masculine detailing and the feminine curved top, so it works for a boy or girl. In the end, I just couldn’t get past the silly button feet on the Newport and we both decided we liked the Majestic more. So, we got the crib, a 6 drawer dresser, a hutch for on top of the dresser for books and things, conversion rails for the toddler and full bed, and a mattress – they should all arrive near the end of October/early November and we’re very happy with our choice! What’s even better is the store had a sale going on, plus we got to use 3 coupons, one of which was substantial!

This is the style. Unfortunately, not the color. I couldn't find a picture with the color we chose - espresso, which is the darkest brown color. Also, we got that dresser (again in espresso), but not with the mirror. We got a hutch instead.

Espresso color

As for bedding, I’m going with Marcie’s suggestion and picking out a full set for a boy and a full set for a girl. Though indecisive me has only managed to narrow it down, with Chris’s help, to 3 of each (I originally had like 15 of each, it was really overwhelming!)- but I think that’s ok. We may find out the gender sooner at the 3D ultrasound that I think we’ll do around 24 weeks, but even if we don’t find out till baby arrives, having 3 options for each gives us backups just in case something is discontinued by then, which with my luck, it will, but I do have the options ranked, so if nothing is discontinued, I guess I do have 1 choice for each. And again, I’m happy. I know we’ll both really like any of the sets we end up ordering.

Boy Options

This is our #1 boy option. This was probably the one set that Chris had the strongest reaction to, which is always a positive for me. I really enjoy when he really likes something.

Probably our #2 option, but it's by far the most expensive set out of all 6, so I'm not as sure. Plus, there's not as many "made to match perfectly" decor options, so I had to look for "close enough to match" options, which I hope actually do match. We both really like the sleek/simple nature of it though.

Close #3 option. Totally different from the first 2 options. I love animals though, so I like the idea of a zoo-ish theme for a boy. Plus, I like that this particular stlye wasn't quite as busy as most are. And the colors go perfectly with a couple other room decor items I had in mind for a zoo theme.

Girl Options

This is my favorite set of all 6. It's exactly what I've envisioned for a girl's nursery. I love cherry-blossom sorts of things, so this is perfect with the branches/blossoms/birds. It's so cute. I really love it.

This is pretty similar to the previous option, but has a bit more cream color in it and multi-colored leaves. My only concern with it is that I saw another link with the same style name at JC Penny that has much more green in it where the cream is. I'm not sure if this is an older style or if it's just not an accurate picture. One of the reviews mentions ivory though, so I'm hoping it's just a slightly different variation and that this is what you get if you order it. I don't like the version with green as much, but I do still like the pattern, so maybe I'd still love it.

Option #3. Again, pretty different from the theme of the first 2 choices, but I still think it's super cute.

And finally, here’s my 5 month picture. I really need to start doing my hair and makeup for these. I look like a slob, lol.

5 months!

How Far Along: 20 weeks!! Half way there!
Total Weight Gain/Loss: I’ve stopped weighing myself.

Maternity Clothes:
Yup.
Best Moment this week: Choosing things for babet and feeling a bit more prepared.

Gender:
Don’t know.
Movement:
Yup! Babet’s a night owl like mommy and kicks up a storm at night! <Boot, boot> “Hey, whatcha doin’ out there? Trying to sleep? But I wanna play!” <Boot, boot>
Food Craving:
Pizza.
What I miss: Sleeping on my back and stomach. Man, do I miss it…

Sleep:
Meh. More weird dreams this week.
Belly Button: Still firmly an innie.
What I am looking forward to: This week’s monthly appointment. I don’t expect a whole lot to happen this time, but I’m meeting a different doctor from the practice and of course, I’ll hear the heartbeat again!

19 weeks!

Well, another week gone by! I got my results for the 3-hour glucose test and overall, I’m not classified as having gestational diabetes! Yay! Basically, I got another borderline result on the first blood draw, but the second and third were normal, so they’ll test me again at 28 weeks (I think this is when they test most other women) to make sure I still haven’t developed gestational diabetes. As far as I can figure, my body goes a little nuts with sugar at first (but not too nuts, or they’d still say I had gestational diabetes) and then figures out what it needs to do like normal people. In addition to retesting at 28 weeks (which, ugh. I mean, I know it’s for our own good, but still, doing it again will suck!), I’m just supposed to keep an eye on what I eat – not eat too much carbs and sugar and try to increase my protein. It hasn’t been too hard so far. I did love candy and other sweet things, but they make sugar-free versions which don’t taste too bad. And really, for the most part, during this pregnancy, I’ve been craving a good amount of healthy stuff.

In gender determination news, Chris and I decided that we probably will try out the 3D/4D place, but I think we’re going to wait a little while till we do – let things develop a little more. I don’t want to wait too long, though. I’m impatient! Unfortunately, I called the place and they don’t offer any kind of guarantee that they’ll determine the gender (even if you pick the “Gender Determination” package, which is basically the same as their basic package), but I think it might be neat to see the pictures anyway, even if they are alienish. I also have a monthly doctor’s appointment coming up next week, so I may try to beg for another shot at an ultrasound, but a) I’m meeting a different doctor from the practice, so I don’t know what his personality will be and b) I’m pretty sure the answer will be no, regardless of who I beg, simply because they don’t just toss around ultrasounds, presumably because of insurance purposes. But I’ll try anyway.

In terms of decorating, <sigh> I just don’t know. I know everyone says it’s not a big deal, it’s just a place for baby to sleep and he/she won’t know the difference between an adorable planned out room and a cardboard box, but I dunno. And I know the bumper and the quilt are useless because they’re not safe, but I could still maybe put it on the wall or something, not near the crib. And I like the idea of a themed room, with themed decor items! Basically, this was kinda something I wanted to do. I don’t work, so I think making the home look nice is part of my job. It’s important to me and I really enjoy it. Plus, it’s the one time in the kiddo’s life that I have complete say over how they’re dressed and what their room looks like. Why not make it something I love? I’ve been looking for gender neutral room ideas, and I have found a few I like, but it just seems that everything labeled “gender neutral” is either too boy to really work for a girl or too girly to really work for a boy. Or just a solid color. Zzzzzzz. But, I still want to show Chris the things I’ve found and see whether he thinks they’re gender neutral or not and if he likes them. If so, we may have a few good choices. If not, babet will not have decor till after he/she arrives. Unless we actually see the gender at some point between now and then (*crosses fingers*).

Anyway, this week has been…interesting. Obviously, the glucose results were good news, but since returning from Hawaii, Chris has been working 14-18 hour shifts at work for a plant shutdown/restart/project planning thing, so I’ve missed having him around. I also feel really bad for him – he leaves at like 5:30 am and doesn’t get home till after 7 pm most nights. One night he even got back at 11:30 pm after a particularly hard day. He walks in the door at night, exhausted and then gets up early the next morning, exhausted. It just doesn’t seem safe to me. But, he assures me it should be done by Thursday. I hope so.

How Far Along: 19 weeks!
Total Weight Gain/Loss: I’ve stopped weighing myself. The ultrasound showed that babet was growing just fine, so maybe I’ll take notice of my weight at doctor’s appointments, but otherwise, as long as babet’s good, I don’t care how much I haven’t gained.

Maternity Clothes:
Yup.
Best Moment this week: Getting the good news about my glucose results. Anything that lets me not worry is great!

Gender:
Babet is shy like Mommy. Or thinks he/she is funny like Daddy. Either way, we don’t know.
Movement:
Yup! Definitely more noticeable this week. I definitely feel movement repeatedly, several times a day (though I’m not at the point of kick counts yet) and I’m positive it’s the baby moving (and not just gas or muscle twitches). I can’t wait till Chris can feel it too! Though, something tells me he might find it weird, lol.
Food Craving:
Nothing specific again.
What I miss: Sleeping on my back and stomach. Man, do I miss it…

Sleep:
Meh. Weird dreams this week…scary tornadoes and living in a gang-infested neighborhood.
Belly Button: Still firmly an innie.
What I am looking forward to: Maybe ordering a crib/registering this weekend, if Chris isn’t too tired (though I do have a pretty good coupon for the store where we’re getting the crib, sooo….we should really go.). I love looking at baby stuff!

18 weeks!

So the appointment yesterday went well overall. I don’t have the results of the glucose test yet, but the ultrasound was great!! The technician said that everything looked normal and healthy to her, so I’m hugely relieved! It was so amazing to see body parts – the spine, hands and feet, leg and arm bones, the head and heart! The heart rate was 150 beats/min this time and the estimated weight is about 9 oz, which is right on track for where I’m supposed to be in the pregnancy. That was also a relief considering my lack of weight gain!  It was so nice to sit and watch our baby for so long! Babet was really moving around a lot, which surprised Chris, since I’ve only just started to feel the baby. He couldn’t believe I don’t feel it all the time! It was kind of funny though – the amount of movement hinted to us that we’re in store for a little Christopher in terms of energy. He was always the kid with tons of energy, running away from his parents (unless he was on a leash, lol).

Babet at 18.5 weeks!

Babet at 18.5 weeks!

Babet at 18.5 weeks! Ok, honestly, these aren't the best pictures. We saw so much more, much more clearly, during the ultrasound. I think the tech chose to print these because of the face (which I think is facing us near the word face). Otherwise, I can't really make a whole lot out...I think the straight line near the middle of each picture is an arm, so that the baby is tucking his/her arms under his/her chin.

The one slight disappointment (and really only slight because mainly I was just so happy to hear that everything looked normal) was that baby was quite stubborn about not showing us his or her gender at all. Which we really wanted to know. But those legs stayed crossed and occasionally the hands went down to cover the area too, so the tech really had no guess. They did give us a brochure for a place nearby that does those 3D/4D ultrasounds (which Chris thinks are creepy, haha), so I’ll look into it, but basically I’m just afraid we’ll plunk down the $100 for a 15 minute appointment and baby will be shy again! Maybe if they have some sort of “if you don’t see it this time, we’ll have you come back another time” guarantee, but I’m kinda doubting it. Otherwise, I’m not expected to have another ultrasound if the pregnancy is uneventful. They did say that sometimes if the baby has hiccups during the fetal heartbeat check they’ll send you over for a quick ultrasound, but I can’t really expect that’ll definitely happen. And again, if I do turn out to have gestational diabetes, I’ve heard they check the size at least once near the end, so I guess that’s something too, but again, I’m really hoping I DON’T have gestational diabetes.

But really, I guess it doesn’t matter too much if it turns out to be a surprise. I mainly just wanted to find out earlier so that I could plan the nursery. I had somewhat specific ideas for a boy and a girl that definitely don’t overlap (well, I suppose my boy idea could be used for a girl maybe, but I don’t want it to. Also, I’m not a fan of yellow and I only might use green as a main color in my boy room idea.) and I would’ve liked to get those plans into motion before the baby arrived so that everything was ready for him or her. I guess the thing is though, that we’ll probably keep the baby in our room for a short time anyway, so I guess I could just order bedding and miscellaneous decor right after the baby comes – maybe get a few basic solid color sheets if I need to beforehand (though I don’t know what color). But I wanted to have Chris paint the room, too…I think I’ve read about newer fume-free, nursery-safe paint. I guess it’s just a matter of if he’ll have time for it. I’d also planned on choosing my specific crib style based on the gender too. We’ve decided on Munire (thanks for the recommendation, Amal!) because of the high quality and hardwood content (not that blasted soft pine!!), but we don’t know whether we want the Majestic or the Newport. My family all preferred the Newport style because of the curved back which I really like too, but I worried it might be too feminine for a boy with the roundish feet, and I was actually leaning towards the Majestic (which does actually have an option to have the curved top too, if I wanted, but I was actually drawn to the straight back), so basically my dad suggested that I get the Majestic if it’s a boy and the Newport if it’s a girl, which I thought was a good idea. So, now I don’t know what to do. I think we need to order that soon, since the store said that sometimes it can take a while for furniture to come in – and specifically, the Majestic isn’t shipping at all until October/November (though Munire told me over the phone we’d definitely get it in time), so we’d need to get that order in very soon if we want it before the baby came.

Also, clothing. Where the heck do they sell gender neutral clothing?? I feel like I’ve bought it all. And I only have about 5 onesies/shirts, 3 of which are from vacation spots. I’ve looked at Target, Walmart, and Carter’s. The 2 gender neutral onesies I bought here are from Carter’s – a frog design and a duck design. I could find nothing else! Everything is very boy with blue and dinosaurs or trucks or very girl with pink and hearts or flowers. Soo…unless I buy a truckload of plain white onesies (and how boring is that??), babet will also have no clothing until after he or she arrives. At which point, what, do I send out Chris to buy clothing from Target, so we can dress our baby past our first day home?

Hm, I kinda sound like I’m complaining too much, aren’t I? Really, I’m so happy that everything looks healthy with babet, so ultimately the bedding/paint/decor and cute clothing don’t matter. It’ll get done when it gets done. I’m sure we’ll work around it – plenty of people do. I know I have a lot to be thankful for, so I am. Let’s just leave it at that. 🙂

How Far Along: 18 weeks!
Total Weight Gain/Loss: Still down.

Maternity Clothes:
Yup.
Best Moment this week:
Seeing a healthy babet moving around on the ultrasound!
Gender:
<grumble, grumble>
Movement:
Yup!
Food Craving:
Nothing specific again.
What I miss: Hawaii?

Sleep:
Meh.
Belly Button: Still firmly an innie.
What I am looking forward to: Feeling bigger movements!

17 weeks!

The trip to Hawaii was a lot of fun. I’m kinda sad to be back. It was really nice to spend time with my family again. We spent time at the beach and the pool, and we made trips to the top of Haleakala, Hana, and quite a few trips to Lahaina. I think my favorite thing we did was to go snorkeling at Molokini and Turtle City. It was relaxing and interesting and pretty! And being in the water felt really good with the growing weight of my stomach! Getting out, though, was always like, “ugh, where did all of that weight come from??” We also had lots of really good meals – I think my favorite was at Mama’s Fish House up near Paia on Maui. It was my one fish meal of the trip (I was advised to keep my intake under 12 oz for the week, sadly) and it was definitely a good one. The hotel was also amazing. My parents rented a 3 bedroom condo/townhome style place connected to the Grand Wailea, which was just fantastic. Really nice. Oh, and I have no tan. I pretty much just burn, and while it sometimes turns into tan, I decided to slather on the sunscreen regularly anyway. My shoulder’s still got a bit burnt, but oh well.

Family room of hotel room

Family room of hotel room, Where's Waldo?

Us under the big banyan tree in Lahaina

Us under the big banyan tree in Lahaina

Family at the peak of Haleakala

Family at the peak of Haleakala

Us at the Old Lahaina Luau

Us at the Old Lahaina Luau

Family at the Old Lahaina Luau

Family at the Old Lahaina Luau

There’s more pictures here if you’re interested!

Anyway, pregnancy-wise, things have been pretty good. I was a bit concerned about the trip up to Haleakala, with the elevation and all, but we pretty much only drove up, took pictures, and then drove down, so I don’t think it was a problem. I think elevation only really matters if you’re staying at high elevations for a longer period of time (assuming you don’t already live there). Also, the drive to Hana was quite curvy, so I felt a little like a shaken egg (it wasn’t really bumpy, just lots of back and forth), but again, I think I’m fine. But, ooh, that reminds me – I think I’m feeling the baby now! It kinda just feels like a light flick in my lower belly, or popcorn popping. Sometimes, I only feel one or 2 for a while, but other times, I’ve felt several almost evenly spaced. I’m not sure if it’s possible to feel hiccups yet, but my weekly email said that the baby would be practicing breathing now and would occasionally hiccup, so maybe that’s what the evenly spaced ones are.  Also new this week, or newly noticed, is that I think I’m finally starting to show. My parents, who haven’t seen me since right before we found out I was pregnant, said I looked like I am and I think I notice it too, though it really depends on the top I’m wearing. Most empire waist shirts seem to emphasize it a bit more than regular shirts.

In other news, as I might’ve mentioned before, the big ultrasound is tomorrow! But…so is my 3 hour glucose test…which, yes, means I failed the first. Well, I came back borderline. Which is why I need the 3 hour test to see for sure. I’m a bit nervous about it. I’m not so nervous about the rest of the pregnancy, although there were a few scary things I saw about uncontrolled gestational diabetes – basically, if I have it, I fully intend to do whatever is necessary to control it, and if managed properly, there shouldn’t be too much to worry about. And maybe I’ll even get a few more ultrasounds near the end to check the size of the baby, so I’ll get to see him or her more often. It’s more the early pregnancy stuff I read about that scared me. Basically, if you test positive early on (earlier than 20 weeks), there’s a chance you had undiagnosed diabetes prior to the pregnancy. Now, I was tested about a year ago (which would’ve only been about 8 months prior to getting pregnant) and my results were normal and they’ve never been anything but normal, but you never know what could happen in 8 months. And the scary thing I read was that if your blood sugar is out of control in the first 8 weeks of pregnancy, your baby has a higher risk of certain birth defects, particularly heart defects. I’m hoping a) that the 3 hour test comes back negative (which there’s apparently a fair chance it could), or b) even if it comes back positive, the fact that my blood sugar was only borderline when taxed with lots of sugar at the first test means that my blood sugar doesn’t regularly get ridiculously high so that maybe it was not too bad in those first 8 weeks of pregnancy. I suppose the good thing is that we have the ultrasound tomorrow, so that should identify anything big and hopefully put my mind at ease (assuming everything looks good), mostly regardless of the results of the glucose test. The negative is just that I’m not really excited about the ultrasound anymore. I’m just nervous. I just want to know that the baby’s healthy. I’m also not really looking forward to drinking more of that gross drink and then sitting there for 3 hours, being pricked every hour. On an otherwise empty stomach. At least I have the ultrasound right after I drink the stuff, so I don’t have to sit, bored, for all of the wait. Anyway, please think happy thoughts for us that everything will be ok. And, if you haven’t already, get your vote in on the poll for the gender on the sidebar!

How Far Along: 17 weeks!
Total Weight Gain/Loss:
Still down despite eating well this past week.
Maternity Clothes:
Yup.
Best Moment this week: Spending time
with my family in Hawaii!
Gender: Well, I have no final guess, but we find out tomorrow hopefully!

Movement:
I finally believe I am!
Food Craving:
Nothing specific this week, though I was eating better, so I’m hopeful my appetite is back.
What I miss:
??
Sleep: Good this week. I was sufficiently exhausted every night on vacation to sleep pretty well.

Belly Button: Still firmly an innie.
What I am looking forward to: Finding out whether babet is a boy or girl tomorrow (and desperately hoping for everything to look healthy!!)!

16 Weeks!!

4 months!! That’s pretty exciting. The appointment yesterday went well. Chris came with me because he had the day off from work, so it was nice to have him along again! We got to hear the heartbeat again – 154 beats/min this time – so I’m again feeling much better about everything. And we go back in 2 weeks for the big ultrasound, so that’s not too much time in between to worry! And then I have another monthly appointment 2 weeks after that! And hopefully by then, I might be feeling the baby. Anyway, I also had to do the 1 hr gestational diabetes test yesterday – early, because my dad has diabetes. I guess it wasn’t as bad as I’d heard, but the drink was pretty bad. It was like flat, really sugary orange soda that stung my throat. And I had to finish it within 5 minutes. I saw another mom-to-be get a choice between orange and fruit punch – why didn’t I get a choice?? <pout> So, then I just had to wait an hour – I had my doctor’s appointment in the meantime, which took up a good half hour – and then had my blood drawn. This nurse (I think she was a temp or something) didn’t do as well drawing my blood. It hurt more and now I have a bruise. Boo. We went out for breakfast at Friendly’s after the appointment, but once we got home, I decided to take a nap. I was pretty tired after waking up early (after going to bed late the night before) and my stomach was feeling a bit icky.

When I got up, we went to see Eclipse with a few friends. 🙂 Chris is a good husband, going to see it with me, lol. I did really like it and even Chris liked parts near the end, but surprisingly, I actually thought it was a bit longer than it needed to be. A little drawn out in certain parts. But maybe that’s just because I still felt a little icky when we went. I was super excited to see the Harry Potter 7 trailer in the previews though – they look really good and I’m hopeful that by splitting the book into 2 films, they’ll actually do the story justice this time (just don’t skimp on the Snape like you have in the past, Warner Brothers!! And Dan Radcliffe, please conjure the correct emotion for the walking through the woods scene…please.). I’m really excited to see those. I’m just not sure I’ll get to see the second half in theaters as we’ll have a 7 month old at that point.

So, now we’re gearing up for a vacation with my family next week! My parents are taking us to Hawaii and we’re so excited. It’ll be so nice to see them and my sister and her boyfriend (who is also pretty much family) and of course it’ll be nice to be in Hawaii!! I’ve really been looking forward to this. 😀

And, even though I’m not looking much different still, here’s my 4 month picture:

 

 

4 months!

How Far Along: 16 weeks!!
Total Weight Gain/Loss: Well, I thought I was still down the same 10 lbs, but at the doctor, I looked to be up a pound or 2 – but I haven’t compared against my scale yet, so that may just be scale differences.

Maternity Clothes
:
Yup.
Best Moment this week: Hearing the heartbeat again!

Gender: Still don’t know, still have no guesses.

Movement:
I‘ve had a few more twinges, but I’m still not sure it’s not just gas or a muscle twitch.
Food Craving:
Barbeque chicken. Which Chris made last night and it came out really good!! We had it with some grilled tomato and zucchini (with just some oil, salt, and pepper) which was also pretty good!
What I miss: Comfortably getting to sleep. It’s just really hard to get my stomach comfortable.

Sleep: Bah.

Belly Button: Still firmly an innie.
What I am looking forward to: Hawaii with the family!!!!

15 weeks!

NOTE: THIS POST WAS WRITTEN 6/27/10. I’M ALMOST UP TO DATE WITH POSTS! FROM THE NEXT POST ON THE POSTS WILL ACTUALLY MATCH THE WEEK I’M IN!

Well, again, not a whole lot to report this week. I did have a mini-freak out on Friday, though. Which actually, I’ve been doing so well worry-wise (I’m not counting the baby stuff overload, that was just a feeling of being overwhelmed with choice – I knew I would or will eventually choose things) with this pregnancy, so I guess I was kinda overdue for a little bit of freaking out. But luckily it was short lived. Basically, I just got concerned about this weird place in pregnancy where my symptoms are pretty much gone (minus a little morning sickness here and there that goes away fairly quickly and my continuing lack of appetite) and I don’t have the new symptoms of showing or feeling the baby yet. It just makes me feel normal, as in, how do I know that everything’s ok in there?? At least the morning sickness early on was somewhat comforting in that regard! So, I called up the ob/gyn, without any real complaint, I really just wanted to talk to a nurse and be reassured that everything is most likely ok. And that’s what I got. I talked to a really nice nurse who made me feel better. She reaffirmed what the doctor told me that most first time moms don’t start showing or feeling the baby till at least 18 weeks, more likely 20. And reaffirmed that so long as I’m not bleeding or crampy, which I’m not, we just have to assume everything is ok. I do kinda hate having to just have faith. I want proof. But I guess I just need to work on that. She also told me to call back next week if I’m still feeling anxious and she’d try to fit me in for a quick heartbeat monitor to make me feel better, but my next appointment is on July 6th, so I think I can wait.

I guess the only thing I’m still slightly concerned about is my weight (though I do think I can tell that my uterus is growing, so I guess the baby must be as well). I’m still not gaining any. The nurse wasn’t too concerned – they would like me to put on some weight, but she just told me that a) it’ll happen eventually and it may actually be for the best to keep my weight gain at bay early on and b) she recommended trying to eat 6 small meals a day rather than 3 bigger meals, which sounds more doable for me. I just fill up so quickly. We went out for lunch today and I ordered a cup of soup and side salad and I could only eat half of each before I was really full. So, I’m trying to snack on smallish things throughout the day now and I’ve added in some Ensure drinks to boost my healthy calories in an easy way. I also found this article on Baby Center which made be feel better too. I think I’ll just feel much better a) after my next appointment assuming the doctor tells me that everything feels normal to her and we hear the heartbeat again, and b) once I DO actually start showing and start feeling the baby move.

How Far Along: 15 weeks!!
Total Weight Gain/Loss:
Still down about 10 pounds.
Maternity Clothes:
Still enjoying maternity pants, even though I’m still not sure I need them.
Best Moment this week: Ummm, I’m not really sure…it was a pretty ordinary week.
We had some gyros that were pretty good…wow, that’s a pretty lame best moment…
Gender:
Dunno. After last week’s inadvertent uses of “she”, this week, I’ve used “he” a couple times. I seem to be confused.
Movement:
I’m sure baby is moving in there, but I don’t feel it yet.
Food Craving:
Eh, not much. Hence the eating problem.
What I miss: Enjoying food more.

Sleep: Eh, the pillow helps a bit, but I’m still a bit uncomfortable while I’m awake, trying to get to sleep.

Belly Button: Still firmly an innie.
What I am looking forward to: Next week’s appointment. And possibly seeing Eclipse!! 😀

14 weeks!

NOTE: OK, BACK TO NORMAL WEEKLY POSTS! THIS POST WAS WRITTEN 6/23/10

Well, again this week, I don’t have a whole lot to report. It’s been a pretty good week, symptom-wise and I guess the main issue of the week has just been feeling overwhelmed at the choices of baby stuff (mentioned in a separate post). Also, I’d like to formally request my glow. I was promised a pregnancy glow. I’m not glowing. My nails are stronger than they used to be, but they don’t seem to be growing any faster anymore (they seemed as if they were early on). And I guess my hair looks pretty good – it’s gotten pretty long and when I straighten it, I think it looks pretty great; nice and shiny! But I’m usually too lazy to straighten it, so…not really getting the benefit of that. But my face and my skin? Ick. I’ve always been lucky to have pretty clear skin, but now it seems to be breaking out more and so I always look blotchy or pimply! I don’t like it! And the skin everywhere else seems drier. My hands right now are like sandpaper! I need some lotion. I want my pregnancy glow. <pout>

In other news, despite not really showing, my lower belly is starting to feel heavier and firm. Which is weird – I’m so used to it being more like “squish”. But the heaviness is a bit uncomfortable at times. My doctor told me to expect pinching sensations or a slight ache sometimes as my uterus gets heavier and the ligaments stretch to support it and that’s pretty much what I’m feeling. It just feels a bit like my insides are straining to hold everything up. Nothing terrible of course, just a tad uncomfortable every once in a while. I feel it mostly when I’m walking or climbing stairs (especially the abnormally steep stairs in our house). When I sit, I’m pretty much fine. When I sleep, it depends on my position – I haven’t been able to lay on my belly for a few weeks now, but my back is about to be phased out as well. My stomach just feels heavier and it kinda makes my hips hurt. On my side, I’m using a pillow to prop up my stomach a bit since that seems to help relieve the slight straining sensation. It’s also a pain to have to turn over and readjust pillows and everything (gosh, I’m complaining now – imagine how I’ll be when I actually have a hefty baby bump!), but if I stay on one side too long, my hips start to hurt. My pregnancy pillow is supposed to come this week, so I’m excited about that. It’s basically a full body cocoon.

How Far Along: 14 weeks!!
Total Weight Gain/Loss:
Still down about 10 pounds…is this ever going to go up??
Maternity Clothes:
Still enjoying maternity pants, even though I’m still not sure I need them.
Best Moment this week:
Hmm, nothing terribly exciting this week..I guess going to another baby store was kinda fun when I wasn’t feeling overwhelmed by choice.
Gender: I’ve had a couple moments when thinking about the baby, I’ve used the word “she” without thinking.
I’m not sure it means anything though.
Movement:
I’m sure baby is moving in there, but I don’t feel it. I thought I might’ve once, but it was probably just a muscle twitch. It seemed too high.
Food Craving:
Caprese salad.
What I miss:
Sleeping better.
Sleep:
So so this week. As I mentioned above, I’m finding it more difficult to lay on my back when I first get into bed without my hips really hurting and stomach sleeping is long gone, so I’m pretty much stuck with side sleeping now. Unfortunately, I’m waking up with my hips hurting and having to switch sides, so I finally bit the bullet and ordered a pregnancy pillow! Hopefully it’ll help.
Belly Button: Still firmly an innie.
What I am looking forward to: Again, finding it hard to wait to find out who baby is! I almost bought one of those IntelliGender kits today at the store, but it was like $30 and it’s probably not even accurate, so I passed. I’ll just wait…only 4 more weeks…